I was hoping I would have time to post before shabbos. I still have a few minutes before licht-benching. I am actually, amazingly at a retreat this shabbos. This is the first time I have gone away on my own. Im just realizing that I have always been something to somebody. A daughter, a wife, a mother...and now since I have decided to divorce I have become something to myself.This is a big step for me.
I had imagined that when I left my husband I might feel alone and needy. But that has not happened, instead I feel empowered and alive. Its a great feeling. This morning as I was dropping off my kids to school, my car stalled. I panicked; how would I deal with this, who should I call? I used to call my husband for everything- especially car issues. This time, however I made the calls myself, to AAA, and chaveirim. I got my car towed, and I went to rent another car, because I was going away for shabbos.
Doing all these things myself, may seem trivial, but for me it means I am becoming my own person, making my own decisions and owning my life. It is truly a remarkable feeling, one I wish upon all of you.
Wishing all people in cyberspace a calm and peaceful shabbos.
I had imagined that when I left my husband I might feel alone and needy. But that has not happened, instead I feel empowered and alive. Its a great feeling. This morning as I was dropping off my kids to school, my car stalled. I panicked; how would I deal with this, who should I call? I used to call my husband for everything- especially car issues. This time, however I made the calls myself, to AAA, and chaveirim. I got my car towed, and I went to rent another car, because I was going away for shabbos.
Doing all these things myself, may seem trivial, but for me it means I am becoming my own person, making my own decisions and owning my life. It is truly a remarkable feeling, one I wish upon all of you.
Wishing all people in cyberspace a calm and peaceful shabbos.
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