His brother- the Rosh Yeshivah-
(I often mention his title because it seems to me that if you are the owner of such a title, then there ought to be some responsibility attached to it) .
He has added insult to injury by spreading lies about me. He is telling people that I am "crazy" and that I have been an unfit wife throughout my marriage. He says that I am unstable and cannot cook meals for my family nor take care of my children.
He who has stood by for years and watched while his brother tortured his wife and children, now has the audacity to talk Loshon Horah about me.
Why am I surprized?
If they can lie under oath, then whats a little slander here and there?
I am angry that it causes me pain.
I dont want to care about what they do to me.
I want to be in a position where I am beyond him and my marriage.
I want to start anew and find out who I am.
I have only recently understood that I have needs and even expectations.
I do not have to live my life giving and giving until I collapse.
I deserve to have too.
What I deserve? I havent figured that out yet.
It does not matter.
The important thing is that I know that I am a worthy human being, and I am a good mother- no- I am an awesome mom.
I have close relationships with all my children, and even with my kids friends.
I DO NOT deserve to be bullied and humiliated and beaten.
I was created B'tzelem Elokim,
and THAT is something that can never been taken away from me!